my willful actions and acquisitions are but roving; the idlest reverie; the faintest native emotion, command my curiosity and respect. thoughtless people contradict as readily the statement of perceptions as of opinions, or rather much more readily; for, they do not distinguish between perception and notion. they fancy that i choose to see this or that thing. but perception is not whimsical it is fatal. if i see a trait, the young will see it after me, and in course of time, all humanity, although it may chance that no-one has seen it before me. for my perception of it is, as much a fact as the sun and moon.
we cannot live without the village life neither can we live without the intellectual capacity that cities are built upon. it is a combination of intuition and rationality that we need to fully embrace. however, i find that in most inhabitants in the city there is disproportion in this respect. there is a great emphasis placed upon the rational mind and a neglect of one’s intuition. in other words man adopts a more mechanical outlook not balancing it with nature. conversely in the village there is an overdose of living from one’s intuition and a lack of rational knowledge. as a result of my travels, i have two cultural currents that flow through my dna, the country and the city flow like the streams of the nile inside me.
i was being groomed to become an economist, moving from one university to the other. to me it felt like a forced marriage because my parents were basing their opinions on the general change in society. after south africa’s victory for freedom, it became a race for all to secure financial stability. therefore it was mandatory that all parents take their children to the best university to maintain or rather to enhance their financial position. i did not understand why i had to go to university; the argument of securing a better future for yourself did not make a great deal of sense to me. instead, it appeared to me that by going to university i will further amplify the inequality in the country; in other words i would be assuming the position that the westerner occupied during apartheid.